Yes, it's true. By an act of God, M&M will soon be in my care. On Saturday night, I will pick her from the field trip and take her to her new home. The plan is, she will remain in my care until June 5, her birthday.

I can't really express what I am feeling right now. I know one good word is 'terror.' I have already had so many doubts. I basically will be a single, working mom for the next four months. I am going to have to find babysitters and cook meals. I have to buy a bed, a nightstand, etc. I have to adjust to thinking of my needs and wants in the evenings to those of my girl. This is going to be such hard work. What makes this even more difficult is the fact that there are already so many doubters--people speaking against my decision. Some of those are good friends. That is why I need to write this down right now.

I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that God loves this little girl. I know that my decision to request to take her was not a rash one. Instead, I prayed a lot and asked many others to pray as well. And even if I somehow mis-heard the Lord, he will redeem the situation. God is faithful. He is going to be with us and use this situation for His glory. He has indeed chosen the foolish of the world to shame the wise, the weak to shame the strong.

Friends, I covet your prayers. I am going to need so much support from all of you. I would appreciate any advice that you have to offer--cooking, cleaning, child-rearing, etc.

With love,

B