What A Girl Wants

Houston has been nothing like I expected. As you can see from my last post several weeks ago, I was quite depressed and passionately hating my job when I first arrived. Thanks to the incredible grace of my Father, I have now fallen quite in love with what I do and the people I interact with on a daily basis.

I could write so much about my amazing school team or the 68 corps members who are learning to be teachers. But tonight, I want to get a little more personal and share some matters of the heart.

In just 30 minutes, I will be going on my first solo outing with a guy. We are going to dinner and then a play afterward. How we got to this point is a long, rather amusing story. But what I focus on is not our journey together, my journey with my Maker.

Just yesterday, I was in tears at the thought of meeting this guy for the first time, or any guy for that matter. Hurts from my past have simply bound me up in fear and made terror of rejection something that nearly disables me. But today, things are different. I have spoken with my closest friends and they have spoken truth into my life. They have reminded me who I am in Christ. They have assured me that I am neither repulsive nor unlovable. I am worthy of love both from God and from a good man. Whether this man is that man remains to be seen and frankly I am not concerned about that. Tonight, all I care about is learning to love God more and learning to love myself. Hopefully along the way I can encourage my brother in Christ as well.

Say a prayer for me,

B