...the past week would do it.
I met my new class last Wednesday. It was probably the worst day of school I have had in the year I have taught here. I had 7 boys and three girls. The next day didn't get any better--except that I got one more boy. I now have 8 boys and 3 girls. And on Wednesday and Thursday of last week, I just cried my eyes out. I haven't cried this hard since my uncle died. In a way, I did feel as if I had lost someone--19 students to be exact. I missed my old students and just wept over the fact that we were no longer together. I was angry at the new kids for not being my old children and was even angry at their ridiculous behavior.
We have now had 5 teaching days. In that time I have had one student call another's sister a whore, one call another boy with a facial deformity "Chinese Butt," a situation where a student bolted--twice and I had to chase him down in my high-heels. (I caught him in the parking lot, curled up in fetal position, weeping. It took me a very long time to coax him back into the classroom and convince his grandmother not to let him go home, as he wanted.) In short, I have more behavioral problems over these last five days than I had all 165 combined last year. It is truly ridiculous. Please pray for me. Today I just got angry. I had enough of their disrespect and blatant disregard for rules and consequences.
On the flip side, I see that God has given me children who need me so much. Please pray that God gives me His heart for these children. Pray that I love them with everything that is within me.
Take care,
B
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I can't wait to hear the miracles God works in your classroom this year! I am praying for you as you dispense His great love to each student. You are amazing!
Praying, big sis.
I'm praying for you right now. I, too, expect God to do great things through you because you abide in Him.
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